Monday, April 27, 2009

1 week since the funeral...

Well it has been 1 week til Seth's funeral... I have been having a really hard time coping with this... Which is one of the reasons I have not updated the blog.... Sorry....... Just wanted to let you know a few things that have been going on.....My husband went back to work today, which is hard for me... My daughter is a total MESS... She is sooo sweet, she will look at pictures of Seth that we have hanging in the house, point to them and say "Bubba", which always makes me cry... I have been out, but not much..and I have ran into one person that didn't know..and telling them was very hard for me.....Please pray that I start doing better coping with this..I have really been having a VERY HARD time.....Thanks for checking in....

12 comments:

  1. I'm sorry. :( I don't know what to say to make it any easier for you and I wish I could. But I know the only thing that can help with that is having your little boy back. God's grace will see you through this. We just have to ride out this roller coaster of emotions and it definitely isn't fun. There will be good days and bad days. It may take time to have more good days than bad days. There is no time limit to grief.

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  2. PJ, I know you are having a very tough time. I just wish there was something I could say or do that would help to ease your pain. It breaks my heart to know how much pain you are in with no way to console you from where I am. If I were there I would be there as much as you let me be to comfort you and just spend time with you. You know that if you ever need to talk or need ANYTHING all you have to do is ask. I am here for you.....And I am in constant prayer for you, Matt & Emma.

    BTW, even though it breaks your heart, I think that is so very adorable..Emma saying "Bubba" when she looks at Seth's picture! She will always remember and love him, even though she is too young to really understand what has happened.

    I pray for better, more peace-filled days to come soon. I love you girl!

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  3. I am so very sorry you are having a hard time with everything you have been through. i will keep you in my prayers and ask god to lift you up and keep you in his tender loving care. I had a tough time with Carleigh (im the grandma) but it was even tougher for me with my daughter. But, much prayer and weeks passing have really helped me. I DO NOT know where we would be without prayers and lifting our sorrow and tears to God. He really does answer prayer and for me time has been on my side. But there is no limit or timetable to your grief, everyone is different. Don't be hard on yourself, take the time to grieve so you can take the next step, and then another step, etc. Your in my prayers.
    Linda

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  4. The 3 of you are in my prayers PJ & I look forward to the day you feel up to sharing more photos of your beautiful boy!

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  5. I wish I knew the right words to say but in your situation, there arent any. You've made the right decisions and are an inspiration to so many. Others that are going through similiar situations are watching you and trying to learn anything they can. You have purpose..Seth does too. My prayers are with you and if I could give you a big tight hug I WOULD!!!! Kelli(indiana)

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  7. PS: OH MY GOSH your pictures are STUNNING.... no words, really.... You are beautiful, your sweet baby is beautiful... and your husband and toddler..... WOW... all I can say is WOW!!!

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  8. I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beautiful son. Our daughter has been in heaven for over a year now. If you ever need to talk or vent, please let me know. A dear friend of ours, her son passed away due to Anencephaly. Just know that you are never alone, and we are all here for you!

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  9. PJ--I am so sorry I wish your in my prayers. I know our lord will give you the strenghth you need to make you stronger. Remember your never along we are all here for you.
    God bless you and your family
    Jennifer

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  10. From one Mama to another ((HUG)). Both of my girls were twin pregnancies from the beginning and in each of them, we lost one. I can relate to some degree to the pain you are feeling. Embrace it, no matter how painful it is, because in your pain and sorrow is the love you hold for Seth. In time the sorrow and the pain will fade, but know that your love for Seth will remain forever.

    Love,
    Tasha

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  11. ((hugs)) I know you miss your baby boy so much! You have every right to be sad, upset, and in pain. I will be thinking about you.
    Nicole

    http://loganquinn.blogspot.com/

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  12. ((hugs)) I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. There is a wonderful support group that I found when I lost my son. If you are interested here it is: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/AngelMoms2/ I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

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