7 months..

Has it really been 7 months since I held my little boy? It doesn't seem like it could have been that long ago, but then again, it seems like it has been so much longer since I held Seth, kissed his perfect little lips, and hugged him tight. WOW, I just cant believe this time has passed. This year has really gone by super fast. I miss Seth so much, and I am so scared to see how Christmas is going to go this year, Last year, the week before Christmas is when we found out that Seth had anencephaly, and this year, well, he isn't with us. Holidays are so hard for me, as I am sure they are for most of you. Hopefully we will get through without breaking too bad. Please, for those of you who have lost babies/children, please tell me how you get through. Well, on a different note, we bought Seth's Christmas tree for the cemetery, and are decorating it with "baby's first Christmas" ornaments, and taking it out there..I can't wait to decorate his grave for Christmas!! Thanks for checking in on us! Love you all!

Christmas Balloon Release..update

I am doing a Christmas Balloon Release in memory of my little Seth, in December. If you are interested in participating in this with us, please let me know, and I will get you more Information!! Thanks!!

Well I am doing the release on December 20th at 4 pm all time zones.

feeling guilty...

Well I just found out that an antibiotic I was taking while Seth was conceived is one of the sulfa drugs that is linked back to causing anencephaly. I was taking bactrim the last 2 weeks of July, and all of august, I found out I was pregnant with Seth on September 11th, and I was a about 4 or 5 weeks pregnant. So now I am really upset, thinking maybe I could have prevented it, if I hadn't taken the anti biotics...ugh..i feel so guilty, and i am now blaming myself for Seth being gone..Please pray that I get better, and come to terms with this...

prayer please...

Hey everyone!! Well to start off with, my mother and father in law's house caught fire on Friday night. It wasn't a complete loss, but their bedroom, bathroom, and closet are gone. They are staying at our house til everything gets repaired, which may take a while. Their insurance will over everything that was lost, except for pictures, of course, you cant replace them. Please pray for everyone. We have been through soooo much this past year, but e still keep our faith. Thanks for praying!!! you are all sooo awesome..I love you all!!!!

ULTRASOUND NEWS....

Well Everyone....MY BABY IS HEALTHY, AND HAS A PERFECT ROUND HEAD!!!!!Just wanted to update everyone!!Thank you all for the prayers...and please keep them coming.. So far EVERYTHING looks really good!!!

Seth's Headstone has arrived....

Well, it finally came in!!! On Tuesday, October 13, 2009..I just wanted to share a few pics!! more to come!!

ultrasound....

Well today I had my first initial appointment. I had to answer TONS of questions...but, they scheduled my ultrasound appointment. I will have an ultrasound on October 26th at 11:20 am...I cant wait..just 3 more weeks!!! Please Pray that the baby is healthy!!!