Wednesday, November 4, 2009

feeling guilty...

Well I just found out that an antibiotic I was taking while Seth was conceived is one of the sulfa drugs that is linked back to causing anencephaly. I was taking bactrim the last 2 weeks of July, and all of august, I found out I was pregnant with Seth on September 11th, and I was a about 4 or 5 weeks pregnant. So now I am really upset, thinking maybe I could have prevented it, if I hadn't taken the anti biotics...ugh..i feel so guilty, and i am now blaming myself for Seth being gone..Please pray that I get better, and come to terms with this...


  1. I'm praying for you and don't blame yourself I know it's not easy not to. {{HUGS}}

  2. PJ, I'm so sorry. :(


    I know it is so easy to blame yourself for Seth's anen. I have done it too. Nobody knew then about the antibiotics. It's not your fault. I know that if you thought it was unsafe you wouldn't have taken it.

  3. I just stumbled on your blog. I am so sorry about your son. I don't know you but I know that guilt. It's not your fault. It is easy to go there with all the what ifs, but it's not your fault! I would like to join in on the balloon release. Is it for all the babies who have passed? It will be 4 weeks tomorrow since I lost my son. God bless

    KC Russell

  4. Thanks for joining in with the balloon release, and ye it is for all babies. I am doing it for in memory of my little Seth and all of his angel friends, and boy does he have alot of them! thanks for reading my blog! So sorry about your son.


  5. I encourage you to talk to your doctor about this.

    At conception and during the first trimester, the baby's nourishment comes from the blood lining of the uterine wall--not supplied from the mother's bloodstream. I'm not a medical expert, but knowing this, I doubt that anything you were taking so early in pregnancy was transfered to Seth. His condition was not your fault. Even if it was a result of the medication you were taking, which I highly doubt, how could you have known? ((hugs!))