Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Getting harder...

It seems as time gets closer to have baby Seth it is getting harder for me to cope with things. I am getting more emotional, and crying alot more. I try to talk to my husband about things, but it just makes me cry, and when i cry it is hard to understand me. I just don't know what to do. I feel sooo good about not taking the "easy way out" and i knew when i mad the decision to carry to term it would be hard. But I never would have thought it was going to be THIS hard. I am soo ready to meet baby Seth, but mot ready to loose him!! anyways i just needed to get that out!



  1. I am deeply sorry to hear that you are hurting so badly. I do not understand since I have not been there exactly but I do understand the grieving for your child. I have had 2 miscarriages and they are hard, I cannot imagine what you are going through.

    You can email me anytime you just want to vent or cry......

  2. Girl, do I know what you mean!!! Like you, I'm so excited to meet Carleigh but in no way am I ready to say goodbye. I pray that she lives long enough for us to spend some good time w/ her. I think we all want that. (((hugs)))

  3. I just wanted you to know that I am praying for you. Years ago a friend made the comment that the least we could do for someone was pray for them. Then she hesitated and said "No, the MOST we can do is pray"! And I think you should do whatever makes you feel better...Scream, cry, laugh, be still....only you and God know what you need when you need it.

  4. Wow I just posted last night on my own blog how hard it was to carry my own son Logan (who also had anencephaly) for 4 months knowing he would not make it. Logan died over 3 years ago so I am speaking from experience when I say that even though it is really really hard right now I promise you when you hold your little one in your arms for the first time you will know that you did the best thing & it will be worth every second to be able to look into your babies eyes and love and snuggle him as long as he is still with you.

    I know it is hard probably the hardest thing you will ever go through. When you finally get to hold your little one none of this will matter. Its a hard road & not many people take this route, but just know there are others who have gone down this road before and are here if you need any support.

    ((hugs)) & thinking of you,
    Nicole Mommy to Logan Quinn.