It seems as time gets closer to have baby Seth it is getting harder for me to cope with things. I am getting more emotional, and crying alot more. I try to talk to my husband about things, but it just makes me cry, and when i cry it is hard to understand me. I just don't know what to do. I feel sooo good about not taking the "easy way out" and i knew when i mad the decision to carry to term it would be hard. But I never would have thought it was going to be THIS hard. I am soo ready to meet baby Seth, but mot ready to loose him!! anyways i just needed to get that out!
PJ
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I am deeply sorry to hear that you are hurting so badly. I do not understand since I have not been there exactly but I do understand the grieving for your child. I have had 2 miscarriages and they are hard, I cannot imagine what you are going through.
ReplyDeleteYou can email me anytime you just want to vent or cry......
Jennifer
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Girl, do I know what you mean!!! Like you, I'm so excited to meet Carleigh but in no way am I ready to say goodbye. I pray that she lives long enough for us to spend some good time w/ her. I think we all want that. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI just wanted you to know that I am praying for you. Years ago a friend made the comment that the least we could do for someone was pray for them. Then she hesitated and said "No, the MOST we can do is pray"! And I think you should do whatever makes you feel better...Scream, cry, laugh, be still....only you and God know what you need when you need it.
ReplyDeletePsalm 34:18
ReplyDeleteWow I just posted last night on my own blog how hard it was to carry my own son Logan (who also had anencephaly) for 4 months knowing he would not make it. Logan died over 3 years ago so I am speaking from experience when I say that even though it is really really hard right now I promise you when you hold your little one in your arms for the first time you will know that you did the best thing & it will be worth every second to be able to look into your babies eyes and love and snuggle him as long as he is still with you.
ReplyDeleteI know it is hard probably the hardest thing you will ever go through. When you finally get to hold your little one none of this will matter. Its a hard road & not many people take this route, but just know there are others who have gone down this road before and are here if you need any support.
((hugs)) & thinking of you,
Nicole Mommy to Logan Quinn.