Wednesday, September 9, 2009

1 year ago...

One year ago (the 11th) I found out I was pregnant with Seth. I was overfilled with happiness. We Our family of 3 was about to become a family of 4. Little did we know, On December 18, 2008 Our baby boy was diagnosed with Anencephaly. A NTD that is supposed to "Incompatible" with Life. My dreams were crushed. I had no idea what was going to happen. and I prayed the whole time, that God some somehow, work a miracle and that my little boy would be born Healed. Well that didn't happen, but God did answer my prayers. I got to spend time with my little boy, hold him, kiss him, and tell him how much I loved him. And I got to say goodbye. I prayed that if God didn't heal him, that he give me time with my little boy. And as 11 hours was not near enough, it was way more than some others get. I miss my son so much. I love to talk about him, look at his pictures, and think of what could have been, even tho I know it will never be. I am very thankful for the wonderful friends I have met, Thanks to my little boy. Mommy loves you Seth Ryan, and I can't wait to see you, and hold you again! <3 My Precious Baby Boy!!!


  1. He is so perfect and SO beautiful. I love you, PJ.

  2. He is very precious! No amount of time is close to enough. Just thinking of a year ago when we were all so blissfully unaware...